Convocation Week–3rd time’s the charm?

To IzFine,

It’s like near midnight here in Penang and I’m immensely tired but I don’t know why I don’t feel like going to sleep. Procrastinating is such an annoyance.

But, yeah, I’m writing to you tonight because this one week had been a whole hectic and a bunch of emotional ride for me. It’s convocation week. Does that explain it all?

The campus would get so busy. They cancelled all classes and tutorials at the main hallway. The bus would change routes to prevent traffic. There will be inflow and outflow of cars and people. The convocation expo with its expensive bouquets, food and clothes would be on a full swing.

And I sat there, watching it all unfold in my eyes.

This year is my third year witnessing this yearly event. There would be a little bit of changes here and there but the rhythm of it, the joy of it, is still the same energy.

I felt…forlorn, sad. I’m looking at these happy faces and I wonder if I could survive another two years here in USM.  I sometimes feel like a gangly naive first-year, still trying to wrap up my mind about this world.

Sometimes, the people here makes me anxious. Or was it just my negative thoughts that infiltrate my mind, destroying my bright blue sky of my heart?

I haven’t been asking how was it on the other side of things for you. I’m sorry.

Hey, how have you been? Hope you find that right FYP title project for you 😀

Sincerely,

swiftly14